Grr, arg

Things that depress me:
Bridal Showers
Fights w/ boyfriends for really no good reason
Sleeping alone
Planning an anniversary party for my parents
My physical condition

Yeah, so my day yesterday was filled with many things that brought me down. (also: planning parents' anniversary party) I mean, the bridal shower was fun, especially because I haven't seen the bride to be in months, but the whole time I couldn't help thinking "Hey, when is it my turn?" I foolishly got my hopes up when I got back from Texas b/c the boyfriend said he had made reservations for the weekend at the casino and thought maybe...but no. I hadn't told him about the shower (because when has he surprised me with anything like this) but I guess he hadn't made the reservations anyway. I dunno, I guess I just thought that me being gone for a week would jumpstart something with him.

But no, last night it was all back to "you want to rush into this." Still wondering when 4 1/2 years turned into "rushing it," but whatever. Miscommunication abounds between me and the boy, because I take things at face value, and sometimes I should, but sometimes I shouldn't, and how the heck am I supposed to tell which is which? And they say WOMEN are complicated. So while I hadn't planned, or intended on, getting into it with him last night, the rest of my day's events just sent me over the edge into Snippyville. Coupled with his allergies and asthma, we had a recipie for disaster, my friends.

Sorry for the rant. I tried to sort it out in my head last night, but couldn't.

My mom, bless her heart, told me I wasn't overweight and that "everyone" is noticing the weight I've lost. Well, that's all well and good, and I'm glad the scale is moving in a downward fashion, but goddamnit, I still don't like the way I look. And, quite frankly, I hate exercising. It's true. I do not enjoy it on any level. I only do it when I'm with motivated people who have gotten over this hate, or actually are deranged enough to enjoy it. I need a buddy system. And, God bless my mother, but she's no good for that. Katie & I were pretty good about it when she was still living at home, but once she left, it got harder to meet up someplace. I was doing fairly well when I had classes last summer, because I would do some reading on the eliptical 'cause the gym was on my way to school.

I am going to take a walk this morning to try and clear my head of all the crap that's floating around in it. Then I have to sit down, create lesson plans and correct some papers. I might force my muse out of retirement as well, because it's only twenty of 8 EST and I have a LONG, lonely day ahead of me.

And onto the fun stuff, quiz results!


Who's Your 80s Movie Icon Alter-Ego? Find out @ She's Crafty
This seems fairly accurate to me.


Would you survive a horror movie? Find out @ She's Crafty
I may be an idiot, but I'm not stupid.


Who Would Slaughter You in a Horror Movie? Find out @ She's Crafty
Great, I'm never going home again.


Who's Your Movie Sidekick? Find out @ She's Crafty
Don't think I've ever seen this movie. Go figure.


Which Breakfast Clubber Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
That's right, folks, I'm a sexually inexperienced, nerdy, 15 year old boy. A girl's got to have goals.